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+ I know that I am certainly not even close to being (nor would I be expected to be) ready to date again... but sometimes I actually get impatient with myself that I am not ready yet.
Please don't ask me to explain this because all I can come up with at this point is this: I have been in the land of heartbreak before, I know it very well, I hate being here, I'm tired of purging and processing and cleansing and reminiscing and all of it... I don't want to do this. EVER. AGAIN.
At this stage in my game of life I am certainly so very impatient with having to STILL be in the land of the single. I have to sometimes actually fight off the urge to roll my eyes and scoff when I get invited to go with a bunch of people from my ward to a haunted house-- oh golly gosh I sure do hope that one guy comes because maybe when he, and the ONLY OTHER DUDE that came, get finished flirting with all 10 of the other girls in the group-- maybe just maybe he will have time to pay attention to me!!
Please forgive the sarcasm, I guess this is just a yuck mood today. JUST SO IMPATIENT that this is still where I am after 30 years of living and breathing and serving and flirting and dating and churching and munch and mingling...
This would be a good time for me to stop, because I don't want this rave to undermine everything I said (and still feel very strongly about) in my last post. Or how I feel in general.
Life Really Is Good-- I just want it to be even better-- Like Right NOW!
PLEASE-- someone tell me that I am not alone!
You're not alone my friend. Get it out! And then, move about. Love you.
ReplyDeleteIts not unnatural for you to want things to be different. It's hard to be 30 and single and without a set job. You are not alone. There are alot of us out there:) I liked your last post about a list. I actually have a life ambition book and a 30 things to do at 30 list. Having ambitions kind of takes my mind off the whole "will I ever get married/ have kids" thing that takes over your brain in your late twenties:)
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